It’s Not Self-Sabotage, It’s Survival: Why You’re Not ‘Bad With Money’
- Davina Jackson
- 9 hours ago
- 11 min read
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"I Know Better, So Why Can’t I Do Better?"
You’ve read the books. You’ve watched the budgeting reels.
You know what to do with your money: spend less, save more, automate everything.
So why does it still feel so hard to follow through?
Why do you keep overspending when you promised yourself you wouldn’t?
Why do you avoid looking at your account balance even though you swore this month would be different?
This is where so many women get stuck.
Not because we’re lazy or irresponsible.
But because money is emotional. And those emotions often run deeper than any spreadsheet can hold.
Traditional financial advice might call it self-sabotage. But the truth?
What looks like self-sabotage is often just emotional survival.
If you’ve ever thought (or are thinking), “I’m just bad with money,” I want you to pause right there because that’s not the full story. Not even close.
You have to understand what’s really going on beneath the habits that keep tripping you up:
The impulse spending. The avoidance. The “I’ll start again Monday” loop.
These aren’t signs of failure.
They’re signs of your nervous system doing what it had to do to get you through.
That’s why this week’s money talk is going deeper than usual because budgeting harder or “being more disciplined” won’t fix an emotional pattern. It can’t (and won’t) change anything if you still feel lost.
If your finances feel messy, inconsistent, or emotionally charged, this isn’t your shame to carry.
It’s your signal to slow down, name what’s real, and start again with compassion and clarity.
Because you’re not bad with money.
You’ve just never been given a version of money that accounts for your story, your pressure, your needs, your survival.
That changes today. Let’s get into it.
Key Points
If you’ve ever felt like you “should know better” with money but can’t seem to follow through, you’re not alone
Most financial behaviors that look like self-sabotage are actually survival patterns
Emotional safety and financial trauma deeply impact how women manage money
You’re not “bad with money”. You were doing the best you could with what you had
Reframing your habits with compassion is how you begin to build lasting self-trust
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‘Bad With Money’ Isn’t the Truth
Let’s get something straight. Being “bad with money” is a lazy label.
It’s usually the first thing women say when they’re overwhelmed by their own financial patterns.
But here’s what that label doesn’t say:
That you grew up in survival mode, not financial security
That no one ever taught you how to manage money - only how to fear it
That gender roles and cultural expectations shaped how safe or unsafe money felt
That the habits you’re ashamed of were often protective not careless
Avoiding your account balance? That wasn’t recklessness. It was your nervous system trying to stay safe.
Impulse spending? That wasn't a weakness. It was self-soothing when nothing else felt within reach.
Starting over every Monday? That was your mind trying to find control in the middle of chaos.
And yet, we still internalize this story that we’re just “bad with money.”
We turn our coping strategies into proof of failure, when in reality, they were often our best attempt at feeling okay.
The truth? You weren’t failing. You were navigating and adapting.
That isn’t just about discipline or knowledge.
It’s about safety, identity, and often, unhealed wounds that have nothing to do with how smart or capable you are.
So, before you pile on more guilt, pause and breathe.
Notice how often this one phrase - “bad with money” - has kept you stuck.
It oversimplifies what’s actually complex. It shames what’s actually human.
It tells women that financial struggle is a character flaw instead of a context.
This is your permission to drop that label.
Because when you stop calling yourself “bad with money,” you make room for something more honest and far more powerful: self-trust.
It's in that space, where shame softens into curiosity, that you can start to see your patterns for what they really are: not sabotage, but survival.
What Looks Like Self-Sabotage Is Often Survival
Let’s talk about what actually happens underneath the surface financial "self-sabotage".
You know the behaviors:
Impulse spending that blows up your budget
Avoiding your accounts for weeks (or months)
Saying you’ll start fresh Monday… again
Piling on shame when you don’t “follow the plan”
These get labeled as reckless, irresponsible, or lazy.
But in reality, these behaviors are much deeper. They’re often financial survival in disguise.
It happens when your nervous system is overwhelmed, your brain isn’t asking, “Is this budget-friendly?” or "Is this in my financial plan?"
It’s asking, “What will help me survive this feeling and make me feel okay right now?”
For a lot of us, it makes spending money, clicking “add to cart,” ignoring your account notifications, or pretending the debt doesn’t exist, feel safer than facing the fear, the guilt, or the belief that we’re failing.
Reality check: That's not irresponsibility. That's emotional survival.
Instead, let's look at what we don’t talk about enough:
How money trauma (yes, trauma) shows up in everyday behaviors
How money learned to carry the weight for every time that you felt unsafe, unseen, or unworthy
The guilt spirals you feel after spending on something you “shouldn’t” have.
The shame that keeps you stuck because you're convinced that “bad with money” is who you are
These financial habits didn’t form in a vacuum.
They’re built from every experience that taught you money was a source of stress, a threat, weapon, or a power struggle - instead of a resource.
They’re shaped by every expectation and unspoken rule you’ve carried (often for years).
So, when you find yourself stuck in old habits, remember:
You weren’t sabotaging your future
You were protecting yourself in the only way you knew how
When you can name that with compassion, not judgment, you'll start to create space:
→ Space to make new choices
→ Space to rewrite your story
→ Space to say, “That was survival. Now I get to choose differently.”
You don’t need to shame yourself into better habits.
You need to understand the patterns that kept you safe and then decide, from a place of strength and self-trust, which ones you’re ready to leave behind.
That’s how you begin to shift.
So how do you reframe your habits and build a relationship with money that actually feels safe and aligned? That’s what we’re about to get into.
Reframing the Narrative From Shame to Self-Trust
Shame is a heavy backpack to carry, and it has a way of making you believe it’s your only option.
It whispers that overspending means you’re weak.
That not budgeting “correctly” means you’re doomed.
That you’re just bad with money and always will be.
But shame is a smokescreen. It hides the truth that underneath every financial “failure” is a reason. A story that often started long before you ever held a paycheck.
Like I said before, financial behaviors don’t just happen in a vacuum.
They’re born from experiences, beliefs, and the survival strategies you’ve carried to protect yourself.
When you learn to name the real root: what’s driving your financial behaviors? You take back your power.
Not with force.
Not with another budgeting rule.
But with awareness.
That’s the beginning of self-trust.
Let’s walk through a few common “failures” that keep so many of us women stuck and reframe them with the honesty and compassion they deserve. So we can finally move forward:
“I overspent again”
Maybe. But maybe what you really did was reach for comfort in the middle of stress, loneliness, or exhaustion.
That’s not failure. That’s your nervous system seeking relief.
“I can’t stick to a budget”
Or… you’ve been trying to follow a system that was never designed for your life. One that ignores how you process decisions, emotions, and financial realities.
That’s not a lack of discipline. That’s a mismatch between the system and the woman living it.
“I should be further along by now”
Maybe you would be if you’d had access, support, tools, or even just a safe space to learn and grow.
But even without those things, you’re still here. Still trying. Still showing up. And right now? You’re exactly where you need to be to start healing forward.
These reframes aren’t excuses. They’re truths that become the foundation of real self-trust.
You don’t need perfect habits to transform your financial life.
You need honest habits - ones that honor your reality, your emotions, and your capacity.
The moment you stop trying to “fix” yourself and start actually listening to yourself, everything shifts:
→ Your patterns become invitations instead of punishments
→ Your progress becomes sustainable instead of performative
→ Your money life starts to reflect you, not just your fear
You don’t build self-trust through shame.
You build it through curiosity, compassion, and small steps that feel honest even if they're imperfect.
When you trade self-judgment for self-understanding, that’s when the real transformation begins. The kind that feels strong enough to last.
That’s exactly where we’re heading next: discovering how to begin again but differently this time. With more grace, more self-trust, and a pace that honors your story.
Begin Again… But Differently This Time
You don’t need another reset that starts with shame and ends in burnout.
You need a different kind of beginning: one rooted in curiosity, not criticism.
When you understand that your patterns were protective, not reckless, you can meet them with more softness, more grace, and less self-blame.
And from that place? Real, lasting change will actually feel possible.
It doesn’t start with a dramatic overhaul.
It doesn’t start with a 30-day challenge or a new budget app.
It starts with a pause.
A deep breath.
A moment where you choose honesty over harshness.
Ask yourself:
What am I really trying to feel when I spend, avoid, or shut down around money?
What do I actually need right now?
These questions aren’t about blame or shame.
They open the door and move you from autopilot into awareness.
And that awareness is where change begins.
Not in perfection, but in presence.
Micro-Reset = One Reframe + One Aligned Action
You don’t need a 90-day financial makeover.
You need one moment where you choose compassion over critique.
And another…. and then another.
But here’s the part most people skip: you also need space to process.
Because if you try to heal your money habits without honoring how they were formed in the first place, you’re just layering new pressure over old wounds.
Try This Quick Journaling Prompt: Slow Down and Listen to Your Patterns
Take 5 minutes. No rules. No perfection. Just write.
Prompt:
When I feel out of control with money, what emotion am I really feeling?
What does that part of me actually need instead?
You might be surprised what comes up:
→ Not numbers, but needs
→ Not failure, but fatigue
→ Not sabotage, but a deep desire for safety, permission, or peace
This where the real reset begins. Not with a new spreadsheet, but with a deeper understanding of you.
Gentle reminder:
You can hold yourself accountable without beating yourself up.
You can want change without shaming the version of you that was just trying to cope.
Grounded affirmation:
You can’t budget your way out of emotional survival.
But you can build a new relationship with your money. One that’s built on care, clarity, and actual support.
Resetting doesn’t mean doing more.
It means doing differently from a place of self-awareness instead of self-judgment.
This is how you stop repeating cycles.
This is how you build momentum that actually sticks.
This is how you start healing forward with intention, honesty, and grace.
As you step into this new way of being, remember: You were never broken. You were surviving.
And now, you get to choose a different path. One that honors your story and your strength.
Next Steps: Start Where You Are
You’ve done the hardest part: showing up, reading this, and getting honest about the deeper layers of your money story.
Now, let’s build on that momentum and talk next steps to building a new money story.
Step 1: Acknowledge Your Progress
First, pause and give yourself credit. You’ve already taken a powerful step by naming the real reasons behind your money patterns. That’s not small. That’s healing in motion.
Reflect:
Where did I see myself in this post?
What part of my financial story deserves more compassion and less shame?
Step 2: Choose One Honest Action
Forget the 30-day challenges or the pressure to “fix everything at once.” Instead, pick one action that feels aligned with what you actually need right now.
Example:
If you’ve realized that your impulse spending is tied to stress, maybe the next step is to pause before a purchase and ask yourself, “What am I trying to soothe right now?”
Or if you’re feeling stuck in old budgeting methods that drain you, maybe it’s time to explore a simpler, values-based approach. One that actually reflects the season you’re in.
Step 3: Create Space to Process
This isn’t just about doing. It’s about being.
Give yourself room to sit with what came up.
Journal, talk it through with a trusted friend, or simply take a quiet moment to breathe.
You’re not behind. You’re not failing. You’re building a foundation of self-awareness that will support every financial step you take from here.
A Soft Transition to Growth
Every small, honest step you take is a win. And the truth is, growth doesn’t always feel like fireworks. It often feels like breathing room.
So as you move forward, know this: you get to build your relationship with money on your terms. You get to trade shame for self-trust, one decision at a time.
That leads us to the most important reminder of all: You’re not broken. You’re surviving.
And now? You’re ready to thrive.
You’re Not Broken. You Were Surviving.
If no one’s ever said this to you before, let it sink in now:
→ You are not bad with money
→ You are not broken
→ You are not behind
→ You were surviving
The habits you’ve carried - whether it was overspending, avoiding, procrastinating, or checking out - weren’t failures.
They were strategies.
They were how you stayed afloat when you didn’t have tools, space, or support.
But now? You’re here. Reading this. Getting honest with yourself.
That’s not sabotage. That’s self-awareness.
That’s not starting over. That’s healing forward.
You don’t have to earn your way into being “better” with money.
You get to rebuild a relationship with it. Grounded in truth, backed by compassion, and aligned with your values, not your shame.
And if the path ahead still feels overwhelming, start here:
Name what you’ve been carrying
Reframe it with care
Take one small step that feels honest
Track the self-trust you’re building, not just the dollars
Because your money journey doesn’t begin with perfection.
It begins with clarity, care, and a decision to do things differently this time.
No more proving yourself. No more “shoulds.”
Just real, grown-woman financial growth… on your terms.
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